Here i want to say that when i started this blog i really wanted it to be a display-board for my own views......but........as you all know...things are not like that... and the title - "Everything's different from my view" seems quite unfit...........and i m unable to find an option to change the title of the blog...........so if anybody knows it.......plz tell me.......and till then, let the title be.........."DONT KNOW WHERE I M HEADING".......for i really dont know.......where i m heading.......i have taken leaves from my office for the preparations of my exams but m unable to study......many confusions surround me when i do....it's been a really long time since m ignoring them........and i really want answers to them.....so i have to look here and there for the answers............it was an year or so ago when i realized a need for a 'guru' to sort my querries...but m unable to find such......Osho seems to answer many of my querries.....but some of them are still remaining...........Osho's path is of ultimate surrender........U can see in my previous post that......he used to get up every morning saying to himself that ' So.... God wants me to live a more day ......may be he has some purpose in his mind....' ....... it was so coz he was well satiated by what he had got..............m not........yes, i can leave all my desires....means i will be happy, in fact, i m happy by what i m{i like my face......i like my body....my figure....my perception}......i dont want to analyse myself.......i can b well with it........i m what i m.........let me be me......but when i find people('people' here engulfs the whole society) not satisfied with me, coz it is not the world when only your satisfaction is enough.......you have to satisfy others .....so that they may let you live.....to go further.....so that they may let you live with respect..........so i have to impose their expectations over me......i have to .....their desires are supposed to be mine......and it is not just that......i have to have some of those desires as mine.............coz i hav to make my position, earn respect in the society(even after knowing that one's position in society does not becomes constant by just one act of achievement.....it has to be continuous......means ...the position is just not to be attained but to be maintained).......so can anybody tell me that when will it be over then......?............but i can leave all my desires.....if world doesnt call me a loser....................but it will.......therefore it is not supposed to be at this moment.......Now what???........just lose yourself for sometime...and live for others for sometime[:D]........in fact for yourself........just study.....it too is a sort of meditation.....coz one has to forget oneself while studying........and meditation is also only when the meditator is not..........ho ho....so..b happy and do well to study.........hope i study now........i know i will not...........coz i want to be happy.........and happy forever.......[:D]