My Realisations - 1

There are many times when we start inward journey, just to have a refresh and more clear insight of external circumstances around us..............there are many moments when we read great sayings from great people who said such to guide us and we try to connect the same with our real lives...............many of such sayings/quotations are read/heard by us a number of times........and we even know their meaning/sense........but it is not just that........It happens a very less number of times that we are exactly able to realize the exact feeling and experience of the narrator/quoter/thinker.........Here i am not just talking about mere quotations, i am also including in them many well-established and common ways of meditation, self-realization etc......in fact, my following sentences will be only about some of those well-established methods.........

There have been many such moments in my life when i have realized and really experienced the real feeling of the fact-establisher.......Some of them are as follows:-

1) Work is worship

We have read it so many times.......from our childhood.........and just thought that who the hell is interested in either of them(work or worship)...........neither of them are for us....... In other words, so far i am concerned, i just thought that who can take work as worship and even who enjoys worship......but reality is what i realized four years back from now..........it was when i prepared for my P.E-I(Professional Education Examination - I, first stage of Chartered Accountancy course)..........Now, many of you would think(who have gone through P.E.-I once) that the studies of this exam are really demanding but not to the extent that they make you undergo such realization............For such friends of mine, i want here to disclose that i am from Science-Bio section and for me it was really a matter of life and death to pass this examination(when i even dont know the abcd of debit-credit system).........for i had suffered failure in Medical Entrance Examinations once earlier.........at the preparation time for P.E.I, i believed and followed that my job is to do an honest hardwork(3-4months, for i awakened late for preparations) and God's job of giving the result will start after the exams(3-4 months, for our results take so long time to come that we can prepare for another exam in that slot of time). .........This was just a mere thought when i commenced..........but as i proceeded during preparations, this thought of mine settled as a belief............

Within a month or so, the above belief got more refined and now, whatever i did, to me it was like, worshipping God as if i was trying to make him happy to give me positive result...............I just did studies with my all heart and soul (for each and every person has his own way of worshipping)..................

CHARACTERISTICS WHICH GAVE BIRHT TO ABOVE BELIEFS AND WHICH IN TURN WERE MADE MORE AND MORE RIGID AND FIRM BY THIS THOUGHT-PROCESS:-

(i)i even didnt give time to myself to think even about my personal relationships...........in fact i was so drowned that i went into isolation for months.........

(ii)i ate less food(just two chapatis in lunch, two in dinner, and tea two times a day for those 3-4months) for more food causes heavyness/drowsyness in the following hours.................

Please dont take all this otherwise ........i dont mean to show anything but all i want to say is........

Yes ......... Work Can Become Worship Sometimes.

(iii)i slept for exact 6 hours a day and woke up always 10 min before my alarm rang(and stopped it so that other family members might not get disturbed).........I was able to wake up early and study whenever i wanted for i believed that......."Nobody dies of insomnia"..........and one more strategy which maintained an exact balance was......."God has given us day to work and night to sleep.........so one should explore night hours for work only when one has utilized each and every minute of the daytime".

(iv)......studied standing so that lazyness may not hinder my speed..........

(v)Not even a single minute in the day was there when i thought about even a single thing else............and so procrastination was very far away from me......

All the above strategies were preestablished in my mind but sole reason behind their successful implementations was determination(i think) ........i didnt let myself for even a single compromise with them in the beginning..........and it itself became a habit.........

After the completion of exams it was like that........ studies, my very purpose of living since last 3-4 months, was not there............. so i had to compel myself to get endulged in other things........But above all, that was the first time when i had believed in God..........